It is painful.
It is lonely.
With trembling hands, I tried to press the nurse call button, but my field of vision grew narrower and darker, and I couldn’t find where it was.
My heart is in extreme pain, my breathless lungs tell me that my life is at its end.
Despite already preparing myself for this many times, I really did not want to die alone.
Not even once could I make someone happy throughout my life.
Before school started for me, I became bedridden, so I don’t have any friends.
Even the nurses who treated me kindly, fixed our relationship as purely professional.
I know that my parents, somewhere in their hearts thought badly about me, who carried a weak life for so long a time.
I bet that no one would even remember me after I die.
White sheets, piles of books, and the sound of medical instruments are the only things that surrounds the world around me.
Memories of me, running under the sun was something impossible for me to have.
I never had played with all my might, nor had I fought with anyone.
A memory happy enough that I will never forget is something I do not have inside of me.
Ah… How sad it is, my life.
I do not want to die alone.
For me to die without anyone missing me.
For me to have lived such an empty life.
Even while having these painful thoughts, my heart, as if it doesn’t care, blinds my senses little by little.
It is over.
Even if I press the button, it is too late for me.
I might not be able to reach it.
I might not be able to hold it.
But, at least…
Even having a life which does not have anything to leave behind, at the very last, I want to die feeling happy.
I want to touch this beloved, adored, dream like, hope filling book.
Ahh…
If I had a chance to be born again, this time, I would like to live like him.
The stretched hands fall on the white sheet, empty.
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Sorry I couldn’t resist. Anyway this chapter is not proofread yet so there might so errors
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If anyone likes or dislikes this translation, please let us know why. This is the first time we are doing such a thing.
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I like the fact that you’re translating this since I can’t speak Japanese and so I can’t be very picky about quality. 🙂
To be blunt though, I prefer oniichanyamete’s version at the moment because the wording flows better and sounds more natural. Such as the line, “My heart is in extreme pain, my breathless lungs tell me that my life is at its end.” It sounds very awkward to me.
Granted, according to daikoku98, it hasn’t been proofread yet, so that could change afterwards.
Regardless, I am still very thankful for the translation.
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Really appreciate the fact that you did take your time to point out potential flaws in our translation. 🙂
Also, our second Proofreader has currently decided to wait a while before joining due to personal reasons, so we are a bit shorthanded in that section. Will do my best to fix it though.
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I have no clue what LN of WN I’m reading. I will be back.
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Got it now didn’t read it before.
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Also how about looking at Axeplant? It was dropped too.
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We can have a look, although, we seriously lack the manpower to do dual projects side by side. (Your opinion will not go un-discussed among us).
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https://henoujikun.wordpress.com/what-came-to-mind-during-my-third-time-in-another-world-was-to-for-now-get-naked-chapters/
Kazuha Axeplant?
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Ok nvm
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Recent comments on the right side is there 2 times.
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Forgot to click something.
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score!!
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Thank you for being awesome!!! Really looking forward to future chapters!!!!
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Thanks for the support. Expect to see the first chapter out in a few days. (Cannot specify the date yet, will edit this when I can.)
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breathless lungs tell me => breathless lungs tells me
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Not even once could I make someone happy throughout my life = > not even once did I made someone happy throughout my life (since the other sentences are in past tense)
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Over here, the word could actually refers to the past tense as it implies her life is already over and she hasnt been able to do much.
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